I'll Always Love You.

I love you.

I always will.

Don't you ever doubt that.

I'm sorry.

I took a pill.

I felt like crap.

I jumped into a pool,

The one called "Love."

I didn't know how far I'd fall,

Or how far I'd sink.

A weight chained itself to me,

Dragging me farther, farther down.

I was afraid,

I fell too fast.

I expected a pond,

And found an ocean.

Above, it was disguised.

But below, it was vast.

But never empty.

It was full. 

So, so full.

It was overwhelming.

I felt like I was drowning.

Then I met you. 

You taught me how to swim.

You taught me everything you knew.

But I was still afraid.

So I hid myself in a hole.

You asked me to come with you, to keep swimming.

But I couldn't.

I was losing air.

Too fast.

I had to surface again,

Or I'd surely drown.

My drifting body the only thing left of me.

So when you held my hand, I pulled.

I pulled gently, but persistently.

I needed you to let go.

Let go so I could breathe again.

I don't remember what happened,

But after pulling one last time, 

I found myself at the surface.

My feet touching the bottom of the pool I originally found.

I wish I could bring you with me.

I wish you could see the place I found home before you found me.

But it's impossible. 

I see it now.

I'm still in the pool.

I look for you when I hear splashes behind me.

Shadows in the deep end.

Just out of reach.

I love you.

I always will.

I hope you find someone who can stay. 

Who can breathe with you, swim with you.

I won't forget.

I love you.

Goodbye, L.